At times there is a heaviness within you that gladness cannot reach
Surrounded by numerous joy filled things, the joy is reflected by this heaviness that has surrounded your heart and anchored your soul
You carry the heaviness in hopes that it will fade
“You will get stronger, just keep going.”
“It will get lighter, just don’t stop.”
But no. It does not, it will not, you cannot.
People see your struggle and reach out.
“Here, here is love, hold it tightly and feel better.”
So you grasp on to love, you squeeze it so tightly and wait for it to sink deep down inside within you
But it does not
There is a heaviness that stands taller, stronger
The thickness of this heaviness allows for no love to come thru
You feel warm on the outside but the cold remains within.
Sometimes your spirit is so heavy within you, you say to it, “I cannot carry you around.”
So you leave it to carry itself
And you leave yourself
And you become something other