Beck Wattier

I Don’t Know, But I Know I Need You


TMertonStudyThomas Merton (1915-1968) has become widely recognized as an important 20th century thinker.

He was a Catholic priest, a mystic, a poet, heavily involved in social activism, and a Trapist Monk. He authored over seventy books before his death and wrote on spirituality, social justice, peace, and the practices of prayer and solitude. I hope to post in the future with more details of his life and the things I have gleaned from him. His thoughts and words have influenced me greatly, because of that, I wanted to share this prayer he journaled. It has brought me great peace when I have found myself doubting and has (on more than one occasion) given me the words I needed to say what I didn’t know how to express.

“My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going, I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But, I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. I know that if I do this, you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it. Therefore, I will trust you always, though I may seem to be lost and in the shadows of death. I will not fear. For you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.”

I think we often wait until we have the perfect words to approach God with our problems, thoughts, and feelings. We almost want to have it figured out and have a plan in place, eventually presenting it to God as an update to what we are doing with our life instead of a seeking after His guidance. I think it is okay, and even beneficial, to go to God and simply say ‘I don’t know, but I know I need you.’

He is always waiting and faithful to hear.